The things is, one part of winter I hate is the coldness. It really is an issue when it comes to getting around. I feel like I have been sitting most of the day. Well, I went to a couple of places and worked out on the eliptical for at least a half an hour. But, mostly, I have been sitting all day. I at least have been productive.
I finally went around to the library and got some books.
I finished some more craft projects.
I got some ice cream
I did some online work and browsing. Not as much online work as I'd like, but I got a few chores out of the way. Still more to come. Always a to do list of things to get done.
I've been thinking about my reputation a little....My slutty reputation. Besides media cats and things that happen internationally through their own systems, there are a lot of things I am uncomfortable with. I don't watch every single tv show. I don't watch every single movie. I'm not in all of the gossip circles, and there have been numerous exploitations that were never my permission and that I will always be bitter, angry, and homicidal over. Not issue with person, but issue with privacy and entitlement of others. People continue to push arrogance further by saying, "Oh you need our attention and approval to really be the factor of what betters your self esteem." Like I tell my sister, I tell plenty of other people, there will be the perfectly right person that one day will come and slap the arrogance right out of you. I hope that time comes soon. I'm fed up with arrogance and codependence.
In another thought.... I do not like being seen as one of the biggest sluts. I really don't. Believe it or not, I want to be married one day. Until that day; I'm very uncomfortable with a swinging lifestyle. I'm also uncomfortable as being labeled as such a super slut, but not a regular average slut. Slut sounds like such a bad word. It's not a big deal. I'm sure there are more "classy" words I could use, but really other than it being a term or word, it really doesn't change the entire story or reality. And to annoyingly keep reminding, my sex stories really aren't anyone's business even though I may sometimes share a few at my spontaneous leisure.
I wish I had more non digital friends that I could meet and chat with in person. For now, life is busy, complicated, and non digital friends seem harder to come by these days.
Nonetheless, I still didn't mind being on my own today.
Plenty of unanswered questions. Patience patience patience.......
At the end of the day, I'm going to watch a movie. Going to do that soon.
It feels great to have a day off. I've been picking up a lot of overtime, I forgot the luxury of a simple day off. (Still working on small business with crafts).
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