Right now, I think there are so many hidden agendas going on of people trying to prove themselves it makes things more blurry because of manipulations.
The cattiness is already out there. I'll have some kind of say within the obviousness, but still try to be discreet at the same time. Sometimes, I think it is necessary to be a little expressive and non secretive about things. It is really what I decide to say despite other judgement.
I had fun last night, and it is already getting frustrating with the love life. People will always be critical and whatever of relationships. It is the reason why I like to be secretive with a guy when I first meet him. I like things to be established between the two of us and get to know each other personally before anyone tries to ruin relationships that I take interest in. We're both capable of making our own choices.
In other thoughts, I don't like being put on the spot with major choices so soon. It does not necessarily mean I am rejecting in anyway; it just means I'm not ready to make such a quick or sudden choice.
I am once again a little confused amongst cattiness. The Burmuda just gets too confusing sometimes.
The guy I'm seeing may have a hidden agenda to hurt me or try to push me in a label. We already both see how aggressive I am despite some things. I have also noticed a comforting companionship he can give. So, this kind of contradicts other thoughts of him being out to get me or try to ruin me in some way.
I think some media cats are cute and I smile at him. Other cats, I'm not sure how to take yet.
I did have a good time with him last night.
I don't quite understand everything that is going on in his world or how he feels about everything, but if things work out I still want to take my time with him and hopefully enjoy ourselves.
There are thoughts that I won't say much about for now. I have my own reasons.
I really don't care what people think, I'm going to do what I want to do anyway.
A cat that I have to acknowledge:
http://www.mmafighting.com/2010/12/12/georges-st-pierre-routs-koscheck-post-fight-talk-turns-to-ande/?icid=maing%7Cmain5%7C4%7Clink3%7C30663
With other catty connections, I'm pretty confused with who pierre may be in my world, but I'm appreciative of him.
I don't always like violence or fighting. In this case, with how messed up my life is; patterns I notice; and things that are still used against me to this day, I am happy about it. I think there has been enough drama and stuff going on where it is definitely due and reasonable to have a fight like this.
But with other cats I see, I'm unsure of the motive, or who he may be doing it for.
Nonetheless, I give Pierre a lot of kudos.
